1. Well… Long story short, I don’t know yet.
My last day at work was May 23. Since then I have been learning how to build this website. They claim that you can build one in only one hour. Maybe, but not for this Nana. I have been working on this website 8-10 hours a day, since the first week of June. I say thank the universe that You Tube exists. and all of its many contributors. I have watched many tutorials, learned until my brain wanted to explode, cried, cursed like a sailor and almost gave up many many times.
2. Forging a new life pathway.
After 20 years in the medical field, burnt out, frazzled to the bone. I find myself again at the crossroads of life. I am no spring chicken, I should be cozying up to pre retirement like a foregone conclusion. But as my grandmother used to say, ” I’s had it.” So, what to do now, what will be my new gig in life? It must be something that brings me joy, satisfaction, meaning, and healing.
3. I decided to embark on a journey.
I have decided to do the very thing that I know will give me instant gratification, travel. However, I am not going to travel just for the sake of traveling alone. Im not rich and like most people my savings sucks, not to mention, I lost my ass in the 2008 recession and never recovered from it. No, I am going with a specific purpose in mind. I am embarking on this journey to attain joy, satisfaction, healing and meaning. I don’t for one minute believe that my only purpose in life is to work until I lose my mind then die.
4. A purposeful journey.
What the hell does that even mean? First and fore most, what it doesn’t mean, I am not going through a midlife crisis. I am going through a human experience. I want to know what the best of me is, what a best life looks, acts and feels like. I want to understand what living in the moment actually is. Some might say that the best has already past me up and this is as good as it gets, just accept it. No, I won’t. Some might ask, How is traveling going to make a difference? Because I’m not going to collect pictures, I’m going to collect memories.
5. Reality is subjective.
When you’re young, you think anything is possible, you take chances and blissfully ignore caution signs, obstacles and naysayers. When you’re older, you tend to want to to hang on to all of the comforts that you have paid for with your life. You are tired of starting over, you just want to relax, take it easy, then BOOM! Life is there to slap your ass back into reality. But what is reality when it comes to living life? I for one have never received a blueprint, strategy, or instructions. So, my new reality can be whatever I want it to be, now I just have to figure out what that is exactly.
6. Purposeful actions.
I am not a fan of the Duggars, but I say, hey if populating the earth is your journey, go for it. Because, these people are all over the media I have been unwillingly subjected to the phrase ‘Purposeful Dating.’ Of course after seeing this phrase float around the internet like pop ups gone wild, I had to find out what the fuck it meant. Turns out that it means to date with the purpose to marry. In fact, The Duggars state, that it is the ONLY reason for dating. I think that is debatable, but I do love the laser like focus and, they do own that shit.
7. My laser like focus.
My focus is on my new journey and, only my new journey. Im going to focus on my new journey with laser like precision. My purposeful actions, will ONLY be for this new journey. This means that I need to get my shit together, fast, quick and in a hurry. Getting passport, affairs in order, I need to buy stuff like boots, chargers, and who knows what else, all of my energy must go toward my journey, including and especially this blog website thing. I may be going it alone, but it doesn’t mean I want to be alone. I need Ya’ll there with me.
8. Call me old fashioned but…
I have always been under the impression that BLOGS are for connecting with people, I didn’t fully understand that they were for making money. Now I’m even more confused about these things… How does this shit work? I watched a movie called Julie and Julia, the young woman had a soul-killing job- like me, outside of that, she didn’t have any particular talent to speak of- also like me. Long story short her hubby makes a blog for her, she decides to cook recipes of the Chef, Julia Childs. Everyday for entire year. Lest you forget, she has no talent to speak of. She trudges along-burning, spilling, and sucking at cooking. But eventually she finds her groove, but she wonders, if anyone even knows what she is doing, does she even exist to anyone? Well it turns out many people were following along riding through the successes and failures of her cooking project. Thats kinda what I want. A simple Blog and a connection with people, riding along with my challenges and breakthroughs.